In the spring of 1984, I ran for public office. In case the Rea for City Council campaign doesn't ring a bell, it was a spontaneous and totally independent undertaking. No doubt, it showed.
Predictably, I lost, but I've never regretted the snap decision to run. The education was quite simply worth the price.
In truth, I had been in a blue funk for some time prior to my letting a couple of casual friends talk me into it over a Foosball game in a nightclub. Although I knew I couldn't win, I relished the opportunity to have some fun mocking the system. Besides, at the time, I needed an adventure.
So it began. Walking door to door through Richmond's 5th District, collecting signatures to qualify to be on the ballot, I talked with hundreds of people. During that process my attitude about the endeavor began to expand. People were patting me on the back and saying they admired my pluck. (What I was not considering was how many people will encourage a fool to do almost anything that breaks the monotony.)
By the time I announced my candidacy at a press conference on the steps of the city library, I was thoroughly enjoying my new role. My confidence and enthusiasm were compounding daily.
On a warm April afternoon I was in Gilpin Court stapling handbills, featuring my smiling face, onto utility poles. Prior to the campaign, I had never been in Gilpin Court. I had known it only as "the projects."
Several small children took to tagging along. Perhaps it was their first view of a semi-manic white guy - working their turf alone - wearing a loosened tie, rolled-up shirtsleeves, and khaki pants.
After their giggling was done, a few of them offered to help out. Thus, I gave them fliers and they ran off to dish out my propaganda with a spirit only children have.
Later I stopped to watch some older boys playing basketball at the playground. I'm an unapologetic hoops junkie, so it wasn't long before I felt the urge to join them. I played for about 10 minutes, and amazingly, I held my own.
After hitting four or five jumpers, I banked in a left-handed runner. It was bliss, I was in the zone. But I knew I better quit fast, before the odds evened out.
Picking up my staple gun and campaign literature, I felt like a Kennedyesque messiah, out in the mean streets with the poor kids. Running for office was a gas; hit a string of jump shots and the world's bloody grudges and bad luck will simply melt into the hot asphalt.
A half-hour later the glamour of politics had worn thin for my troop of volunteers. Finally, it was down to one boy of about 12 who told me he carried the newspaper on that street. As he passed the fliers out, I continued attaching them to poles.
The two of us went on like that for a good while. As we worked from block to block he had very little to say. It wasn't that he was sullen. He was purposeful and stoic. As we finished the last section to cover, I asked him a question that had gone over well with children in other parts of town.
"What's the best thing and the worst thing about your neighborhood?" I said with faux curiosity.
He stopped and stared right through me. Although I felt uncomfortable about it, I repeated the question.
When he replied, his tone revealed no emotion. "Ain't no best thing. The worst thing is the sound."
"What do you mean?" I asked, feeling a chill starting between my shoulder blades.
"The sound at night, outside my window. The fights, the gunshots, the screams. I hate it. I try not to listen," he said, putting his hands over his ears to show me what he meant.
Stunned, I looked away to gather my thoughts. Hoping for a clue that would steady me, I asked, "Why are you helping me today?"
He pointed up at a flier on a pole and replied in his monotone. "I never met anybody important before. Maybe if you win, you could change it."
Words failed me. I was desperate to say anything that might validate his hope. Instead, we both stared silently into the long shadows. Finally, I thanked him for his help. He took extra handbills and rode off on his bike.
As I drove across the bridge over the highway that sequesters his stark neighborhood from through traffic, my eyes burned and my chin quivered like my grandfather's used to when he watched a sad movie.
Remembering being 12 years old and trying to hide my fear behind a hard-rock expression, I wanted to go back and tell the kid, "Hey, don't believe in guys passing out handbills. Don't fall for slogans. Watch your back and get out of the ghetto as fast as you can."
But then I wanted to say, "You're right! Work hard, be tough, you can change the world. Never give up!" During the ride home to the Fan District, I swore to myself to do my absolute best to win the election.
A few weeks later, at what was billed as my victory party, I, too, tried to be stoic as the telling election results tumbled in. The incumbent carried six of the district's seven precincts. I carried one. The total vote wasn't even close. Although I felt like I'd been in a car wreck, I did my best to act nonchalant.
In the course of my travels these days, I sometimes hear Happy Hour wags laughing off Richmond's routine murder statistics. They scoff when I suggest that maybe there are just too many guns about; I'm told that as long as "we" stay out of "their" neighborhood, there is little to fear.
But remembering that brave Gilpin Court newspaper boy, I know that to him the sound of a drug dealer dying in the street was just as terrifying as the sound of any other human being giving up the ghost.
The ordeal that boy endured in his childhood was not unlike what children growing up in any number of the world's bloody war zones are going through today. Plenty of them must cover their ears at night, too.
For the reader who can't figure out how this story could eventually come to bear on their life, then just wait and listen.
F. T. Rea is a free-lance writer who lives in Richmond.
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